REFLECTIONS

 REFLECTIONS

I used to call you only when I was in need

I used to look for you only when I was in need

I used to humble myself to you when I needed your help

How kind your love is sweet Jesus

I used to visit your house often when I was in need

And when you provided for me I would keep off

I used to rejoice in you only when you did good things for me

I started getting used to you ooh Lord

I started taking things for granted

I started promising to be better if you took care of my needs

And when you took care of my needs I would soon forget

I would forget what I had promised You

How kind your love is sweet Jesus

You are always good to me, all good for me Jesus

My family was well, I was well. All was well

Then I totally forgot the source of all that wellness

I trusted in my own ways, I trusted in luck

I trusted in hard work, I trusted in smart work

I stopped seeking your help anymore

I trusted in my own ways

But all this time…your love never ceased

You punished me as your child ooh you did!

I felt the pain, I saw the diminishing light

Within no time, all was gone, all was lost

I experienced your wrath ooh Lord

You laid everything to waste.

Hard work to waste, property to waste!

Union to waste, respect to waste, love to waste!!

Everything was desolate.

But you ooh Lord remembered me and chose to save me

You brought me close to you; you hid me in your house

I served you as you taught me your ways

You healed my wounds and comforted me

In your house you taught me forgiveness, you forgave me

In your house you molded me

Like in the potters house made a brand new me

You adopted me as your child

You ooh Lord taught me humility in the hardest way

You taught me Joy amidst tribulations

You protected me amidst the wild beasts

You taught me how to smile in any situation

You lifted my yoke of hurt, you made my burdens light

You opened doors for me and led me through

And though I never deserved it, you kept me safe

You fed me, clothed me, & sheltered me; you took away all my bitterness

I felt loved and cared for

And though I did not have everything, I enjoyed your peace

I enjoyed your comfort, I enjoyed your protection

You chose to love me my Lord

All this time I thought I loved you

I thought I loved you so much my Lord

But then you showed me on the mirror

A reflection of my love for you

I hated what I saw, I hated how it felt

I hated to be part of it, I hated my kind of love

I saw a selfish me, a very mean me!

Only asking but not giving

Only receiving but less thanksgiving

Always asking but not listening

I saw a very harsh me

Always being on my own look out

I felt pain looking into my own reflection

I wished you would take away the mirror off my face

But you ooh my Lord was patient

Very patient that I had to process the whole reflection

But you my Lord do not anger forever

You had mercy on me and taught me a lesson

A lesson on how to love you

A lesson on how to have a relationship with you

And today my Lord I say here I am

All free and ready to have a relationship with you

May your will be done

And may I will to do your will.